why do i always do this?

i really wanna go back to YDM! :'(
i want GOD in my life again! :'(
i knw i have slid back really badly. :'(
right now i need GOD! :'(
the pain in going through is hurting me! :'(
i knw he's always watchin over me in everything i do! :'(
i have done a lot of things that is not right! :'(
i want forgiveness and Help! :'(
911!!
Amen! :'(

-pearl...